Stefan Stenudd
Stefan Stenudd
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I'm a Swedish writer of fiction and non-fiction books in both Swedish and English. I'm also an artist, a historian of ideas and an aikido instructor.



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Cosmos of the Ancients, by Stefan Stenudd.

Cosmos of the Ancients
The Greek philosophers and what they thought about cosmology, myth, and the gods, by Stefan Stenudd. Click the image to see the book at Amazon.

Tao Te Ching - The Taoism of Lao Tzu Explained, by Stefan Stenudd.

Tao Te Ching
The Taoism of Lao Tzu Explained. The great Chinese classic, translated and extensively commented by Stefan Stenudd. Click the image to see the book at Amazon.

Life Energy Encyclopedia, by Stefan Stenudd.

Life Energy Encyclopedia
by Stefan Stenudd. Qi, prana, spirit, and other life forces around the world explained and compared. Click the image to see the book at Amazon.



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Occasionally I Contemplate Murder, by Stefan Stenudd.

Occasionally I Contemplate Murder 9

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M urder is an expression of power, ultimate power. Man can do many things - construct bridges, split the atom and walk on the moon. Still, no power is as infinite, as divine, as these two:

To give life, and to take it.

So, of course they're related. The two opposing ends of a line. Could it be in this relation that we may find an explanation as to how murder is at all possible?

Think of it:


We reproduce in such a fashion, man and woman, that we're led to believe we are the creators of new life. It really seems as if we're making our offspring, all by ourselves.

Well, if the birth of a human being is nothing but the joining of an egg and a sperm, then I guess we do have the right to call ourselves creators. Unto our offspring, we are the Gods.

For sure, we frequently treat our children in such a manner, and demand of them to treat us accordingly. Creator and creation.


Then, if we regard ourselves as the makers of life, we naturally feel entitled to be the ones breaking it, as well. We start lives, so we end them, too. It makes obvious sense.

If we didn't see reproduction as an accomplishment of our own, it would probably be impossible for us to consider, much less to commit murder.

We are the victims of unavoidable hubris.


Maybe this state of affairs even makes us feel entitled, yes, quite obliged, to end lives as frequently as we commence them. In search of balance.

In fact, if we can be accused of actually ending lives in the act of murder, then we must be said to start them in intercourse. We are worth as much praise for the latter, as we're given blame for the former.

Balance.




Y es, murder is magic, as is life.

It takes two to make a baby, whether or not that making is the real act of creation. It also takes two, evidently, to commit murder:

The killer and the victim.

One could regard the act of murder as a sort of rape, enforcing the will of one upon the other. A rape bringing death instead of new life.

Yet, I'm such a superstitious man, I believe that neither kind of rape can be performed without some sort of agreement between the participants.


The sexual rape is an act of forced penetration, where the woman is pierced. This piercing is very hard to accomplish, if she's not to any extent surrendering to it.

Of course, she doesn't surrender willingly. But somehow her muscles must be - however minutely - weakened by the distraction of surrender, for the piercing to be at all possible.


Ironically, the woman's main surrender may be a disbelief in her own powers.

Perhaps most women do it as a paying of ransom. They accept one malice, in order to avoid another, more permanent one - namely the other kind of rape, that is murder.

In murder, too, the victim must be pierced, one way or the other, for his life to emanate. Also this piercing demands some kind of surrender from the target, to be at all possible.

Were the victim's lust for life solid and without any flaw - then the bullet would miss, the knife would slip, the poison would immediately return the same way it entered.

Indeed, it's impossible to kill someone who does not at all want to die.


That's why some people tend to survive incidents, which are overwhelmingly likely to be fatal.

They step out unharmed from demolished cars, they're crawling up from the water a full twenty-four hours after their boats were wrecked, and stand up after tumbling down a stairway of one hundred steps. It happens more frequently than chance alone could really allow for.

Not to mention how people can drive their cars for years, or be daring pedestrians in city traffic, or get heavily drunk thousands of times, without having any dangerous incidents at all. What spell encases them?

Lust for life.


On the other hand, it's not an unbreakable capsule. From time to time, in the grinding pains of life's many little wounds, in the fatiguing cognisance of day to day monotony - who doesn't, occasionally, want to die?

A murderer with a sense of timing, would find his prey easily convinced.


Also, the very disappointment in finding oneself the target of such intent, discovering that one is so despised, or such an impenetrable obstacle in the route of another - that alone can enforce the wish.

If someone wants me dead, so much that he dares break the laws of both Heaven and earth to have it done - why not let him? Why stand in his way?


Refusal would feel like a theft of sort, just as much as the act of murder does. He wants to take my life, and I want to keep it.

What really gives me the right over him?

Thus, not at all rarely, we are content to become martyrs. If someone wholeheartedly wants me dead, then, alas, so be it!


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How to get the book

If you want to buy the book, you can do so at most international web based bookstores, such as Amazon and the like. Here are links to the book on Amazon US and Amazon UK. Use the latter if you are European - then you get the book cheaper and quicker. Otherwise, you may want to buy it at Amazon US.

At Amazon US: Murder, by Stefan Stenudd - at Amazon US.
At Amazon UK: Murder, by Stefan Stenudd - at Amazon UK.

Now also a Kindle ebook:
Murder - Kindle ebook


Occasionally I Contemplate Murder
by Stefan Stenudd 2006, 2011
Paperback, 124 pages
ISBN: 978-91-7894-050-9


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My Fiction Books

All's End, science fiction novel by Stefan Stenudd.

All's End

Science fiction novel about a quest through the universe for a perfect world. Click the image to see the book at Amazon.

Occasionally I Contemplate Murder, by Stefan Stenudd.

Occasionally I Contemplate Murder

Thoughts on life, death, and the meaning of it all, explored by anecdotes and mythological fragments. Click the image to see the book at Amazon.